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3/24/25

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不想说 #1

Things I’ll Never Say #1

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3/24/25

TIME

LOCATION

Oakland, CA

不想说 #1

Things I’ll Never Say #1

DATE

3/24/25

TIME

LOCATION

Oakland, CA

不想说 #1

Things I’ll Never Say #1

**English Translation available**

**English Translation available**

我留意你有一段时间了，好像不管我去哪、总能见到你，你总是在做我很好奇的事情、看我很感兴趣的书、用我好奇音质的耳机、家里一堆我想看的书、貌似很好沟通的父母，为什么这样的家庭环境不是我家、我总是想。

我嫉妒他、甚至因此讨厌他。我不理解，为什么他轻易有我想有的一切。每次看到他，我都有些怨恨、甚至愤怒，为什么，是因为他是男孩、我是女孩吗？为什么我什么都不被允许做、不允许被尝试，为什么他什么都可以。

I’ve been noticing you for a while. It feels like no matter where I go, I always run into you. You’re always doing something I’m curious about, reading books I’m interested in, using headphones with a sound I want to hear, and your house is full of books I want to read. Your parents seem easy to talk to. And I keep thinking—why couldn’t that have been my family?

I was jealous of him, to the point where I started to dislike him. I didn’t understand—why did he so easily have everything I wanted? Every time I saw him, I felt resentment, even anger. Why? Was it because he’s a boy and I’m a girl? Why was I not allowed to do anything, not even to try, while he was allowed to do everything?

I’ve been noticing you for a while. It feels like no matter where I go, I always run into you. You’re always doing something I’m curious about, reading books I’m interested in, using headphones with a sound I want to hear, and your house is full of books I want to read. Your parents seem easy to talk to. And I keep thinking—why couldn’t that have been my family?

I was jealous of him, to the point where I started to dislike him. I didn’t understand—why did he so easily have everything I wanted? Every time I saw him, I felt resentment, even anger. Why? Was it because he’s a boy and I’m a girl? Why was I not allowed to do anything, not even to try, while he was allowed to do everything?

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I’m an independent creator born in 1993 in Changsha, now based in California. My writing started from an urgent need to express. Back in school, I often felt overwhelmed by the chaos and complexity of the world—by the emotions and stories left unsaid. Writing became my way of organizing my thoughts, finding clarity, and gradually, connecting with the outside world.


Right now, I’m focused on writing and filmmaking. My blog is a “real writing experiment,” where I try to update daily, documenting my thoughts, emotional shifts, observations on relationships, and my creative process. It’s also a record of my journey to becoming a director. After returning to China in 2016, I entered the film industry and worked in the visual effects production department on projects like Creation of the Gods I, Creation of the Gods II, and Wakanda Forever, with experience in both China and Hollywood. Since 2023, I’ve shifted my focus to original storytelling.


I’m currently revising my first script. It’s not grand in scale, but it’s deeply personal—centered on memory, my father, and the city. I want to make films that belong to me, and to our generation: grounded yet profound, sensitive but resolute. I believe film is not only a form of artistic expression—it’s a way to intervene in reality.

我是93年出生于长沙的自由创作者。我的写作起点来自一种“必须表达”的冲动。学生时代，我常感受到世界的混乱与复杂，那些没有被说出来的情绪和故事让我感到不安。写作是我自我整理、自我清晰的方式，也逐渐成为我与外界建立连接的路径。


我目前专注于写作和电影。我的博客是一个“真实写作实验”，尽量每天更新，记录我的思考、情绪流动、人际观察和创作过程。我16年回国之后开始进入电影行业，曾在视效部门以制片的身份参与制作《封神1》《封神2》《Wankanda Forever》等，在中国和好莱坞都工作过，23年之后开始转入创作。


我正在重新回去修改我第一个剧本——它并不宏大，却非常个人，围绕记忆、父亲与城市展开。我想拍属于我、也属于我们这一代人的电影：贴地而深刻，敏感又笃定。我相信电影不只是艺术表达，它也是一种现实干预。

sunnyspaceundefined@duck.com

website designed by Daiga Shinohara

©2025 Double Take Film, All rights reserved

I’m an independent creator born in 1993 in Changsha, now based in California. My writing started from an urgent need to express. Back in school, I often felt overwhelmed by the chaos and complexity of the world—by the emotions and stories left unsaid. Writing became my way of organizing my thoughts, finding clarity, and gradually, connecting with the outside world.


Right now, I’m focused on writing and filmmaking. My blog is a “real writing experiment,” where I try to update daily, documenting my thoughts, emotional shifts, observations on relationships, and my creative process. It’s also a record of my journey to becoming a director. After returning to China in 2016, I entered the film industry and worked in the visual effects production department on projects like Creation of the Gods I, Creation of the Gods II, and Wakanda Forever, with experience in both China and Hollywood. Since 2023, I’ve shifted my focus to original storytelling.


I’m currently revising my first script. It’s not grand in scale, but it’s deeply personal—centered on memory, my father, and the city. I want to make films that belong to me, and to our generation: grounded yet profound, sensitive but resolute. I believe film is not only a form of artistic expression—it’s a way to intervene in reality.

我是93年出生于长沙的自由创作者。我的写作起点来自一种“必须表达”的冲动。学生时代，我常感受到世界的混乱与复杂，那些没有被说出来的情绪和故事让我感到不安。写作是我自我整理、自我清晰的方式，也逐渐成为我与外界建立连接的路径。


我目前专注于写作和电影。我的博客是一个“真实写作实验”，尽量每天更新，记录我的思考、情绪流动、人际观察和创作过程。我16年回国之后开始进入电影行业，曾在视效部门以制片的身份参与制作《封神1》《封神2》《Wankanda Forever》等，在中国和好莱坞都工作过，23年之后开始转入创作。


我正在重新回去修改我第一个剧本——它并不宏大，却非常个人，围绕记忆、父亲与城市展开。我想拍属于我、也属于我们这一代人的电影：贴地而深刻，敏感又笃定。我相信电影不只是艺术表达，它也是一种现实干预。

sunnyspaceundefined@duck.com

website designed by Daiga Shinohara

©2025 Double Take Film, All rights reserved

I’m an independent creator born in 1993 in Changsha, now based in California. My writing started from an urgent need to express. Back in school, I often felt overwhelmed by the chaos and complexity of the world—by the emotions and stories left unsaid. Writing became my way of organizing my thoughts, finding clarity, and gradually, connecting with the outside world.


Right now, I’m focused on writing and filmmaking. My blog is a “real writing experiment,” where I try to update daily, documenting my thoughts, emotional shifts, observations on relationships, and my creative process. It’s also a record of my journey to becoming a director. After returning to China in 2016, I entered the film industry and worked in the visual effects production department on projects like Creation of the Gods I, Creation of the Gods II, and Wakanda Forever, with experience in both China and Hollywood. Since 2023, I’ve shifted my focus to original storytelling.


I’m currently revising my first script. It’s not grand in scale, but it’s deeply personal—centered on memory, my father, and the city. I want to make films that belong to me, and to our generation: grounded yet profound, sensitive but resolute. I believe film is not only a form of artistic expression—it’s a way to intervene in reality.

我是93年出生于长沙的自由创作者。我的写作起点来自一种“必须表达”的冲动。学生时代，我常感受到世界的混乱与复杂，那些没有被说出来的情绪和故事让我感到不安。写作是我自我整理、自我清晰的方式，也逐渐成为我与外界建立连接的路径。


我目前专注于写作和电影。我的博客是一个“真实写作实验”，尽量每天更新，记录我的思考、情绪流动、人际观察和创作过程。我16年回国之后开始进入电影行业，曾在视效部门以制片的身份参与制作《封神1》《封神2》《Wankanda Forever》等，在中国和好莱坞都工作过，23年之后开始转入创作。


我正在重新回去修改我第一个剧本——它并不宏大，却非常个人，围绕记忆、父亲与城市展开。我想拍属于我、也属于我们这一代人的电影：贴地而深刻，敏感又笃定。我相信电影不只是艺术表达，它也是一种现实干预。

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